Wednesday, March 29, 2006

My Phobia

i hv a phobia of underground passageways...u know one of those that links from marine parade to east coast park...eerie, narrow, hollow sound of cars zooming above, this thin narrow strip in-between bright sanctuarys....

Why i hv this phobia? Backtrack 15 years ago, when i was just Sec 1, me and a group of girlfriends decided to go East Coast Big Splash and nearest possible way was to walk from Chinese Swimming Club's underground pass at Marine Parade. There were 6-7 of us chatting & giggling, i remembered walking down the staircase, along the passageway and was slightly ahead of the whole group when i had this uncanny feeling to just turn around & look behind me (and the group), I saw this dark-skinned guy with long wavy hair, WEARING A SHIRT ONLY walking down the staircase at a fast speed!! I gasped & just ran towards the other end, i didnt even shout...and few girls saw that half-naked flasher & screamed, all my friends started to run when they see me took off.....

The moment we reached the other end, we turn back to look but don't see the flasher anymore...My face turn white & was just scared stiff at this episode. So yes, that's why at every underground passageway, I'll never fail to turn and look several times before i reach the other side...

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Crushing your Crushes

Crushes can happen to anyone at anytime of their life, it's so wrong to think crushes only happen to young giggly girls or blushing boys...mature & stable executives also have their fair share of crushes...whether it's someone they met at their workplace, buses/mrts or churches...

Some crushes morph into a steady relationship and end up happily married, which is good...happens to ms practical ....at least this crush has a good outcome.

It so happen that a few girlfriends talked about their encounters with crushes..i'm surprised to find out that ms flower has a crush on a fellow colleague. She was at first very bothered & upset over why this has to happen to her (and i've never see her like this before gushing abt how this guy is this & that), cos she's not one who'll easily fall for someone & *ahem...got hitched legally already. From the start, she handled the entire situation honestly (yes, to her other half...bravo!), tactfully & with lots of self-control as she was adamant on crushing this crush.

ms "eat-grass" crush was more straight-forward, she met this guy while on a project..sounds promising & all, we all harboured hopes that maybe it could develop into a meaningful relationship for her WHEN .....................this guy has got BGR problem & develop a mid-life crisis thus decide to 'adopt' a bad boy image aka go party, drive sports car (?!?!)....that's when the decision is made for THE CRUSH to be crushed!

so of course it's hard to get over our crushes immediately & spontaneously, so we need to come up with solutions to get over it!We also discussed about whether we prefer for the crush to crush itself1 or we crush the crush2 (refer to definition if lost).

Definition
1.crush to crush itself - the guy actually did something 'duh' to make us cross him off our list
2.we crush the crush - WE NEED to do something to cross him off our list...

anyway, my preferred crushing technique is to concentrate on his bad points, i.e stare at his long, protruding nose hairs or focus on certain traits that you dont like about him e.g. he likes to go for private "Ixxxxx"(shopping centre) sale, adopting a bad boy image when he's not (this is definitely uncool)...

bound to work if u focus on CRUSHING THE CRUSH

Monday, March 27, 2006

Singlehood

In a melancholic mood...

maybe
cos i just read sumiko tan's column in papers, realised that she has become more intense in her 'single' columns increasingly, previously i was hooked onto her that i religiously read her column everytime, now i'm dreading to "discover" her articles (cos she dun write so frequently) on Sunday Lifestyle. Let me share why...
Lonely Hearts Club - Loneliness is such a drag...But in the end, it's only you who can chase the blue away

One of the scariest spectres of growing old - especailly if u r single & female like me - is that of the lonely, crazy old spinster...Sometimes it scares me enough to contemplate getting hitched to any half-decent man I can find but, thankfully, sanity always prevails. Of course, loneliness isn't restricted to old or to singles, but chances of it descending on you increase with age, especially when you are unmarried.

When you are abled-bodied & employed, so many things prevent you from being lonely, Ther e are always colleagues to talk to, deadlines to meet & challenges to tackle.

But when such lifelines are taken away from you and you are staring at days on end with nothing to fill the hours, then what? Loneliness is easy to fight if you have a family, for even if relations aren't all harmonious, at least there is a network of support you can rely on - or just people with whom you can chat.
Friends are like buoy, but up to a point, for while you may have plenty of them when you're in your prime, who's to tell that most won'tbe of the fair-weather kind?......
maybe one of my good gal frens were feeling down today and she shared an article about singlehood as well..

maybe, it's a Monday Blues for me...didn't know that i can hit me even when i'm not working.



Dates & Non-dates

What constitutes a date & what doesn't? In fact, definition varies from person to person quite widely. My take on date is that it must be planned for & both parties interested in checking out each other. Other than that, does it count? friendly dinners/lunches, count as date? talking abt work extended to coffee & drinks, counted as date? catching up with old frens or flames over dinner, counted as date? apparently some counted them as dates as along as you are with an opposite gender...

Sometimes i hate being on dates, maybe it's becos i felt obliged to be nicer (if the guy is paying..HAHA!) and talk more if there's a longer bout of silence...i dont particular enjoy dates esp when the "aloof side of me" tends to be a bit more guarded about my inner feelings & not very willing to share certain info, which definitely impedes progress of any possible relationships.

On the positive value of dates, they can be a yardstick of measuring your market value and making sure that you are still the available & attractive single you still hope to be!

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Training for Race

Sun morning was spent at Yishun SAFRA, the place i hv been before, but i didnt realise that it's within 5 mins walking distance from Yishun INT, too entrenched in the "take taxi if cannot see from the MRT" mindset.

This session is meant for novices who has little or no experiences in adventure racing-rope elements....i hv never tried rope ascending neither has ZXL nor instructor and it has been ages since i last abseiled...10 yrs?! despite the rustiness, the session was useful & enjoyable.3 of us bonded & found out wat we can and cannot do (like instructor cannot be ropeman when abseiling, wil reach the ground faster unwillingly...)

Rope ascending portion is interesting...need techniques as well as arm power to hoist urself up the rope, though it can get pretty strenous if it is any higher than 1 storey...which we suspect it's gonna be... There are 2 main ropes dangling down where the jumars (ascending devices) are clipped onto. To climb up, the following steps are:
- Jump & slide the 1st jumar on 1st rope as high up as possible so u'll be sitting on ur harness,
- Next, step onto the legloop attached to the 2nd rope and slide the 2nd jumar up together with the leg rope, u should feel urself moving up along the rope
- Assisted by the legloop, push up with your leg & haul urself up using armpower at the same time..
- Repeat the steps until u reach the top....

All 3 of us are a wee bit exhausted by the technical climb...but agree that it's quite fun...for a SHORT climb...

Need to strategise on the race...eh...what to wear & bring...look 'saat' on the outside only...but cycle & swim..CMI...*PRAY*

Saturday, March 25, 2006

An Extremely Long Day

Funny how i manage to keep myself busy despite tt i'm out of job for 24 days.....amazed i can find so many things to do, think it's becoming my full time job already! now wondering how to make time for proper work suppose if i can find a PT job to support my full time activites...sound so weird.

my cycling updates...Ms Ou Xiang took me for a second lesson today and i learnt to cycle up & down a slope...i didnt know slope can be so intimidating!!! altho the gradient is just 10 degree(hey i'm stil a day-old cyclist!)...in gratitude for the bike lessons, i decided to barter trade with her for my "free"lance services...somehow both us agreed that barter trade is the preferred choice among the unemployed or half-unemployed...

Went to lunch with SSC Alumnis in the CBD Area, 6 alumnis coincidentally so the lunch is announced a SSC Alumni Gathering (new rule, as recorded by this secretary, when there is 5 or more alumni members, it is considered an alumni gathering). Real glad to be able to talk to See Moo Moo and catch up with her, a slimmer self & shocked to hear abt her EVEN slimmer other-half...also glad to hear the CKP(chee kor pek) in her office has left too..hah

On a hot & sweltering day, me had to rush down to ITE Macpherson to work on youth devt for floorball, yes, providing my 'free' lance service again...visited NATAS at Suntec in hope that will be able to get some cheap tickets to London, wasted trip...better luck booking online.

Now rushing to the 4th appointment of the day, briefing at SSC Theatrette...they started late...saw some SSC pple who also joined the adventure race, the organisers were surprised to see me..hehe...kelong? i dun think so, in my view, i'm at a disadvantage cos i just learnt cycling 2 days back and only manage to swim more confidently late last yr...not taking into consideration of my 'very supportive' teammates who just wanted to float on water, run faster & have more bicep muscles than me...had supper with the rest of the gals at geylang at our favourite stall of frog legs porridge & tau huay/you tiao...

Long day....tired

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Cyling 101

was quite jittery when i saw ou xiang's bike, seat a bit high & formidable-looking....with a few instructions from ou xiang and a few balancing acts....i manage to cycle continously without stopping!! tho the way i braked and kept jumping out of the bike....was quite a sight. Now, hoping that i dun become another road hazard for fellow cyclists during the race....

tomorrow gonna practice again...yippeeeee

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Virgin Entry

signed up for an adventure race, novice category...gulp...learning to cycle tmr only..am i too ambitious?

been out of a job for close to 3 weeks, sort of enjoying the solitude of being home, pondering over who to meet for lunchs/dinners, channel surfing between discovery and travel & living channels... but i realised that i can't stand doing nothing...